Monday, May 18, 2009
Hello dearest moomoo 8D
first,
HAPPY 21ST BIRTHDAY ! hahahahahahahah :D . officially old liao.
:D
stay happy my cow cow ! :D
Bambi :D
Moo:D
6:31 PM
hmm first of all, i'm going to be 21 years old in 4 hours time. I'm grateful for all those who remembers my bday. THANK YOU all.
So 21years old marks a new phase of life i suppose. Handful of things had happened recently shall have a long post. Ok so first thing first, NS is drawing nearer and nearer, could really hear those desperate SGTs in tekong calling out and awaits for me. Hope this 2 years would be a self realization period for me, a deep thought for my future and those challenges that are waiting for me to overcome. Continue next my bday wish, hmmm i shall make it a simple one, a chance to get into local Uni to further my studies; my family to stay happy and healthy, all my friends out there to be always happy and fulfil their dreams/goals.
Received several presents alr. but out of all those presents i had recieved, there is one which left me with "weird" feelings. Its from the same person whom gave 2 present i suppose, 1 'direct' and another 'indirect' present from that person. The direct present was way too expensive(to me). The 'indirect' present was getting to know what happened to that person through cyber medium. After knowing the "event" thoughts had been rushing through my brain, its easy to forget someone close to you, forget all the doings he/she did for you. Afterall the person who leaves you its just a part and parcel of your life, someone whom been there in your life and out of our life. everyone know this is a norm, to me yes it is a norm. But are efforts, commitment and responsiblity easily forgotten? So does the old saying of "好人有好报” still existed? On the other hand, the positive side of the "event"; is that the person has gotten over the incident that had happened and is able to carry on his/her life. I'm glad you did really. I would from this very moment drop all my concerns, thoughts, worries for you and get back onto my feets to continue moving forward in my life. As i believe you would be showered with happiness, love and surprises, there would not be any reasons for me to hold on back. Just like our mother Earth would still continue its duty to rotate and gives sunshine to those whom need it, giving a chance of livelihood to any living things. I sincerely wishes you and the other 'party' would be able to seek a new phase of happiness, this would be an additional bday wish from me to you.
Ok apart from the present topic. These few days had been quite emotional for me. I tried to cultivate my mood to celebrate my up-coming birthday but unable to. It would be easy if i knew the factors or reasons that contribute to my EMO-ness. So that i can at least find ways to make myself feel better. Perhaps god created me with a special instinct to be able to know what good/bad "event" i will encounter and face before the actual "event" happen. Hahas so i must really thank god for giving me a gift=) Many had questioned my why the sudden EMO-ness, i cant really find any reason/excuse/factors to explain to you all, so ya I would be fine soon i guess. Many of my close friend say i emo due to the factor of my nearing enlistment date, but its a no-no, i've been able to accept this fact that each and every able-bodied males are to serve NS.
Hmm back to bday, is there a need to call a big celebration for a 21st bday? Before reaching this break-point of young adulthood to adult i always believe and been thinking to make a happening 21st bday for myself. Upon nearing my 21st bday i don't find a need to do so. Reasons are simple This break point of 21st years old marks new responsibilities, shoulder more burden?, a old age and what most people would call "freedom". No money to call for a Hoo-Haa celebration. As one grows older, dreams are minimized. Let me illustrate a good example: Go and ask a primary school kid what dream job would he/she want to be in future. Answers you get would be " I want to be a pilot to fly up high in the air like a bird; I want to be a policeman to catch bad guys, I want to be fireman to fight fires, i want to be lawyers and teachers" So all these answers are so wow! Everyone wanna be one of those to earn big bucks. And now try asking a secondary school student what dream job would he/she want to be in future. Answers you get would be " maybe some engineering field jobs, technician, office job" And lets try asking tertiary students this very question. I suppose the answer would be " Maybe some admin jobs, sales area jobs something related to my tertiary course i had studied" SO where is all the high dream of prestige jobs gone to? Hope this illustration would explain the reason why as one grows older, dreams are minimized.
Ok shall partly end here, will continue later in the night, has been rushed to "do some online taks"
Moo:D
4:01 AM